sometimes, you feel like you're done waiting and holding on.. but it's amazing how feelings are gone one moment and later renewed by a simple song that reminds you of their voice. the way they make you smile and you are completely clueless why. the way you look away once you realize their staring back. and the hurt comes back all over again and you realize that you didn't let go. you just thought you did.
-- a text message that i received from IYA.
aww. it really made me oh-soo sad. 
it made me think of someone. yeah. i'm still confused. the line between letting go and holding on seemed to disappear. i am really confused. is it time to let go? or is it time to let him know that... argh! help me.. i don't know what to do. i have lots of things in my head. but i could not express them. i have millions of unanswered questions. tons of realizations.haii.
somethimes, we think that we give less than what they expect that's why things didn't work out. but i think, most of the time, we give way too much than what they need. or worse, too much than what they deserve. that's why they leave.
that's life--never just.argh!
maybe, he's not mr. right. perhaps he's mr. rite--just misspelled.
* i miss him like crazeh. i miss his laughs. i miss the pancakes, chocolate cakes. and the unlimited fun whenever we're together. too bad, he might not be thinking of me as much as i think of him. or worse, i never crossed his mind.
lucky are those who are still in elbi. i'm dying to be there again. and be with him. or just see him roaming around, sharing his laughter to everybody--but not me. never me.
